My friends are really getting on my nerves about the whole prom thing. Molly and Alex, of course, want me to ask Josh. Then there are Lindsay and Jennifer who have decided to find me a date. They just don't get it. I've been asked, I just don't want to go with any old guy.

I was sitting in study hall this afternoon and Lindsay brings this guy, Rob, over to meet me. If I wrote him down on paper he'd sound perfect: good looking, smart, and athletic. He's a junior but is going to take college classes at the University of Pennsylvania this summer. My father would love him. But there was no chemistry. No sparks. He's a nice guy but he doesn't do anything for me.

Lindsay said I should give him a chance. I agreed to go out for pizza with them tomorrow night, but I really don't think that will accomplish anything, but I won't rule anything out. If I see him tomorrow night and we click then maybe I'll consider him for a prom date, but it's a BIG maybe.

Lindsay says Josh is my Achilles' heal and that I have to forget about him now. I know in my head that she's right. My brain tells me I'm a fool to be pining after all of these months, but my heart won't let go. He captured a part of me and I can't shake him. I know Lindsay's intentions are good, but if she thinks this Rob guy is going to suddenly change my feelings for Josh, she's wrong.

Anyway, there are other things going on in my life besides the stupid prom. I have to do a debate for my sociology elective. I have to find someone in the class to debate and then we have to agree on a topic. I've never really debated before and it seems scary, but I've been dancing and singing in front of an audience for years so at least I don't have to worry about the stage fright aspect of it.

I'm also helping with the children's dance recital that the dance studio is doing. I'll be helping out backstage. It's the weekend before the prom so it's coming up soon.

And of course there's New York. Only three days away now. I can't wait. I can't wait to stand in the middle of that big city and feel it's energy. I've always thought there was something so magical about New York. I can't wait to experience it for real instead of through TV and movies. 3 days!!!!